I called her… because I wanted to talk to her, straighten everything out and get on with my life.
She answered the phone. She was at work. I told her I needed to talk to her. She asked what it was about. I told her not to worry about it, that it was no big deal, and that I would call her later. She said to call tomorrow, and that she gets out of class at 1:40pm.
I don’t even know what I was going to say to her.
I want to know where I stand. I want to know what she wants from me. I want her to know that I WAS upset last night… but I want to tell her without accusing her of doing anything wrong. Something like “I’m sorry if I sounded a bit upset on the phone last night. I guess I was just really looking forward to spending some time with you last night, and when I found out you weren’t coming.”
As a good friend selflessly pointed out, she doesn’t know how I feel.. and therefore she cannot be held accountable for my feelings until she at least knows how high I hold her.