May 13th, 2001:

For a few moments, I actually thought I had lost every last ounce of creativity in my body. Turns out, I am merely lacking ambition, will, drive, and motivation. Whew.

So what’s on TV at midnite on Sunday?

Another diaryland user has joined LiveJournal: sweetskingirl.

I am going to Mom’s now for Mother’s Day.

Tomorrow, I am going to see =w=eener with jaclyn>, and probably , and . Anyone else want to come?

For the past two hours I have repeated the following actions over and over:

1. Lay quietly.
   
2. Start to fall asleep.
   
3. Get to the point where I am asleep enough that I am dreaming, but awake enough that I can control my sub-conscious.
   
4. Dream of something that startles me: jumping off a bridge, almost getting hit by a car, etc…
   
5. Get tossed awake from the dream. Heart pounding, body tingling, eyes darting.
   
6. Breathe deep.
   
7. Lay quietly.
   
8. Start to fall asleep……
   

I highly recommend it.