confession
February 25th, 2002Forgive me father, for I have sinned. It has been 353 days since my last confession.
I live in the past. I try to hold every memory from every friendship and lover, regardless of how mangled it is.
I very rarely have the desire to see things through, though I love to plan them.
I like it when a fountain pen leaks on my fingers.
I am easily bored and emit nothing but an annoying "uh-huh… uh-huh" when I am.
I am easily amused and get very excited and loud when I am.
"Fire in Cairo" by The Cure is still one of my favorite songs.
I get very upset when my train of thought is interrupted.
Somehow, in the back of my head, I still believe if she would give me a chance, we would work out.
I have a tendency to become infatuated with under-aged girls before I know how old they are.
I have no tolerance or respect for people who are incapable of thinking things through.
I am lazy.
I don't get enough exercise.
I don't follow my own advice.
I masturbate almost daily, regardless of sexual content or activity being present in my life.
Often I am regarded as a man who has thought things through when, many times, I make it up as I go along.
I have slept with someone out of sympathy. It was horrible.
I am assertive when I know I have more experience in a given subject, yet am very shy when it is possible that I don't.
The last time I passed by that hill in Denton I thought of you and the afternoon we spent on that hill smoking cigarettes in the sun. And I still have the poem you wrote me, coffee stains and all.
Oftentimes I dream of a life very unlike the one I am living.
I still remember every detail about the best sex I have ever had.
I still remember my first kiss.
I spend money with reckless abandon.
I never lie, but sometimes I don't tell the whole truth.
I have a short temper, though I hide it well.
I get very annoyed at people who insist on subtly showing off at every chance they get.
I have a hard time staying on track.
When I am interested in something, it is very difficult to distract me.
I have never had a wet dream.
Without external motivation, I have a hard time completing menial tasks.
I have a tendency to see the good in people that don't deserve it.
I don't see my friends often enough.
People have a hard time making me happy, because I don't know how to make myself happy.
I would be more content with my job if I enjoyed the company there.
I am always late for work.
I try to present more of every trait than I actually posses, be it intelligence, creativity, sympathy, concern, or understanding.
I don't care about the fact that Korean's eat dog.
I believe in a woman's right to choose.
I hate abusive men and, even more so, abusive women.
In all regards of my life, I only clean up those things that people can see when they aren't looking too hard.


















