reasons not to smoke
July 15th, 2002Yesterday, my reason to not smoke was because I love Jess. I was under the impression that, if I were to fail, she would be disappointed in me, and that was the last thing keeping me from just buying another pack, because all the other reasons seem to have gotten lost some how. Last night she told me she would love me the same, and not be at all disappointed if I smoked. So now I don't know what to do.
On top of that, this morning sucks. Actually, this morning has been decent. Even coming to work wasn't that bad. Traffic was bad, so it took me five minutes to get here instead of four. Man was I pissed. *smile* The morning didn't get bad until I got online. And, in a mere 10 minute session of catching up on the online lives that I missed out on over the weekend, I am upset, and confused, and frustrated.
More than anything, I want someone to talk to. Someone with answers. Second to that, I'd like a cigarette. This is not going to be an easy morning.
