My mind runs constantly. Not because I want it to, or because I've conditioned myself to be this way, but because it just does. Sometimes, mid-sentence, my mind will jump to some odd tangent leaving my mouth wide open, its next syllable lost somewhere in my synapses. I've grown accustomed to it. I've learned to expect it. I've learned to love those interrupting moments of silence in which everything immediately becomes clear and perfect.
When I am working towards a mental goal, these moments happen even more frequently. And just when I think I've managed to consider every aspect of a particular problem, another new idea will hit me, almost instantly. My brain will churn immediately, searching through the existing ideas and finding the best place to attach this newest concept to them.
On more than one ocassion, I've found myself in a room full of people, all meeting to acheive a common goal. One by one, various people will address the group relaying their ideas and desires. They will talk about things I've never heard of. They will discuss processes I never knew existed. All the while I sit in silence, asking questions only to clarify concepts that I feel wont be elaborated on. After they've all said their piece, they begin discussing. Arguments arise. Some people wont budge. Others just don't care. And others are just ignored because they weren't understood. As they argue, my mind shuts them off and spins. And then, in an instant, all the pieces snap together and I stand up. I address the group speaking almost faster than my mouth can produce the words and outline a solution that takes care of everyone. For those things that can't be accomodated, I offer other solutions that are just as appealing. When I finish, no one says a word. I wonder if people just don't understand what I've said. So I ask, "Are there any questions?". For a few seconds, it's silent, and then someone speaks up: "When can you have it built?"
And then the problems arise. My mind doesn't stop thinking there. Instead, it continues to analyze other possibilities. It continues to see other avenues of improvement and streamlining. It continues to rearrange the parts producing even better and better solutions. And it never stops long enough to actually let me do it.
