It isn’t like I asked for this. It isn’t even like I planned it. Life is merely a set of circumstances that have accumulated to the point that we call "now". A now that is forever changing and irreversible. Sure, if I could go back and change things I would. I’d make this easier — life I mean — well… "now" anyway. But I don’t have that option. Unfortunately, this means that I’m here, and you’re here, and we’ve got a list of what we have and an infinite list of what we don’t have, and while those lists will certainly change as "now" continues walking, we can’t change "now".
So here we are. And it’s time to try to change it. Not "now"… the list. You can help, you can hinder, or you can stay out of the way. I’m sure you want to help. Despite how much I say this is for me, it isn’t really. It’s for you. I’m okay with that — no, really, I am. But you’ve got to remember, that it isn’t as easy as it looks. Years of programming haven’t included a feature to just turn it off and on at will — that part still has to be written. Maybe you know me well enough to help write it. Maybe you’ll just be moral support. Maybe you’ll just wait patiently with understanding until I do it myself. Regardless of what you do, you have to understand. You’re a part of me, "now". If you don’t understand, then I don’t understand — and if I’m the one that’s going to figure this out, I have to understand.
There are a few things we’ve never been able to talk about. Sure we hint at them. Our arms and legs and faces talk about them constantly. But we don’t. We can’t. Whether that’s for the best or not doesn’t really matter. That’s just the way it is. So you have to accept it. And that means that we have to be more intuitive. That means we have to read minds. Maybe that isn’t fair. Maybe it’s even less fair that you are really the one that has to have that intuition the most, "now".
You see, changing "now" is impossible. I’ve said this before. But directing the next "now" is easy. I can direct this next second without much effort. I can even direct the one after that pretty easily. Pick a time, any time, in the future. I can direct that one as well. The problem isn’t with directing… it’s with sustaining that direction. If the goal is to direct at least one aspect of every "now" that will ever again come after this one… there’s a lot more work involved. We aren’t talking about directing the next "now" or even the next couple hundred "now"s… we’re talking about changing the program that builds those "now"s.
I’ll fail a million "now"s before I finally get it right. Sometimes, the mistakes will be so great that the "now"s that follow it are almost unbearable. And sometimes, the successes will be so amazing, that it’ll seem like it’s easy. In both cases, you have to be there with me… just like I do.