revjim.net

July, 2006:

high on words

Sometimes, even the simplest, shortest, seemingly insignificant comment can send me spinning on a high of elevated self-esteem. I’m on one now after hearing this from a friend, entire unprovoked and, in fact, off-topic from what we were discussing at the time:

bq. I’m [...] suffering from withdrawals now that it’s been soooooooo long since I got to see any new photography from you.

Just for that, I think I *will* post a new photograph tonight. If I have the new site ready, it’ll go there. Otherwise, I’ll just put it here.

an announcement: finding place is finished

Ahem.

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, topless cheerleaders (psst… drumroll please) it brings me great pleasure to make this announcement:

I just placed an order for the first printed copy of “Finding Place”:http://revjim.net/books/20054q-finding-place/. I should have it in about a week. Provided that there are no flaws or glitches in the printing and conversion process, that means I’ll be placing the presale orders in about a week. So, if you’ve been thinking about ordering a copy and just haven’t gotten around to it, “now would be the time”:http://revjim.net/books/20054q-finding-place/ as the price will go up to about $60 once the presale ends.

Thank you all for your continued encouragement and support. It means a lot to me. Those of you that are inclined to do so, “please help promote”:http://revjim.net/2006/03/29/finding-place-linking-information/ this last week of pre-sale.

Etsy: The Marketplace for Handmade Goods

Jess and I are both trying out “Etsy”:http://etsy.com/, the marketplace for handmade goods. I’ve got “a few photographs”:http://danieljames.etsy.com/ in mine as well as a large, affordable poster, and Jess has packages of “handmade paper”:http://sivatonight.etsy.com/ for sale in hers. If you like photographs, scrapbooking, or handmade paper have a look and be sure to add us and our items to your favorites. If you create handmade goods yourself, I encourage you to try it out too.

don’t worry, I know what I’m doing

What makes “this morning’s catastrophe”:http://revjim.net/2006/07/24/off-to-a-bad-start/ even more annoying is that the reason I was even going into my office at 5 in the morning when I should be getting ready to head out the door for work was because I edited two photo sessions Sunday morning and I needed to upload them so I could send them out and show them off. I edited the “rest of a session with Stefanie”:http://revjim.net/2006/05/02/stop/ and then I edited last Thursday’s session, the first (aside from practice with Jess) in which I’ve started playing with a new style of portraiture for me. Hopefully I’ll have them up for you tonight, assuming my computer cooperates with me.

Speaking of this new style of portraiture, it’s a lot of fun and the results are quite good. It’s especially interesting because the possibilities for environment are almost endless, yet I still get high quality, controllable lighting like I would in the studio. And, if you’re like me and you just like causing a scene, one of the best parts is the reaction from other people and, in the case of Thursday night, local law enforcement. Since I’m still developing this style quite heavily, if you’re willing to be my guinea pig, I am looking for volunteers. It’ll cost you nothing but a signed model release. Let me know.

I’m really starting to get into the swing of getting photo sessions edited again. Because I’m under such a huge backlog, I’ve been editing from both the top and the bottom of the pile so that I get a nice mixture of new work edited in a timely fashion as well as old work that’s been sitting around forever. Last week I edited 5 sessions total. I hope to keep that up this week as well.

off to a bad start

Today’s not starting off too well. I went into my office this morning to find no power in the room. Apparently, something caused the breaker to blow. I turned off a few things, went downstairs to flip the breaker back on, then came back up stairs to find that my computer isn’t working. It booted, by my USB keyboard and mouse didn’t work. I unplugged it from the back of the computer and then plugged it back in which caused the monitor to go black. I rebooted but still nothing showed up on the screen.

It’s probably a coincidence. Not the breaker blowing — that’s because our house was built by idiots — the computer issues. A few wiggles of this and jiggles of that and the whole thing would have probably started working again. It’s always had electrical problems that I just can’t seem to figure out how to fix and wiggling stuff almost always seems to straighten them out. I just didn’t have the patience to deal with it this morning.

So, I’m at work now taking deep breaths and trying not to think about the annoying hassle that waits for me when I get home. I’ve got some good music to listen to, some monotonous work to drown myself in, and, to punctuate the monotony, some pictures to look at that very hot friend sent of herself last night just because (which is the best reason ever to send scantily clad pictures of yourself to someone).

where to write

I’m not quite sure where any of my writing goes any more. So, I’ll just keep writing if you keep reading (and commenting or emailing for the love of God). If it’s rambly or disjointed or unintelligible hopefully we can work together to figure it out. Eventually, everything will find it’s place again and we’ll all be a lot happier.

background noise

I’ve finally learned to quell a lot of the background thought that seems to run constantly through my mind. I’ve realized over time that the thoughts themselves aren’t unusual in the world. The fact that I pay attention to them at all is. (Some of you will know exactly what I’m talking about here.)

This is mostly a good thing because it allows me to make a little more sense out of the world and allows the world to make a little more sense out of me. It’s got a bad side too, though. There’s now one more piece of me that remains very hidden most of the time. I lost a very good friend not too long ago for expressing too much of myself because I thought I was in the clear. So, if and when this background noise should ever be allowed to the front with anyone other than myself, I’ll have to be very careful about how I do it and who I do it with.

Five A Week: on hiatus

I pulled the plug on “Five-A-Week”:http://revjim.net/five-a-week/. The majority of the audience that I have here just isn’t supportive enough or feedbacky enough when it comes to art to warrant the unimaginable amount of time I spent creating for it.

Those of you that miss it, fear not. My regular photography posting will return soon — even sooner when I learn that people actually do miss it. I’ve got a new place to hold it all that will allow me to better express this art, and to find other like-minded people to share my work with, to support my work, and to better myself from. As soon as I unveil it, I’ll let you know.

moral infidelity

I’m really shaken up by something my wife has done and I’m not quite sure what to do. She doesn’t know that I know yet and I don’t know if I should say something to her and give her a chance to explain (like there is any way to explain this), just pretend it never happened (thought I don’t know how I would do that), or just run away as far as I can.

The other day I thought I would surprise my wife by leaving work early and making it home in time to catch her at home on her lunch break. As I climbed up the stairs and peered into the open door of our shared office I saw something I shouldn’t have. Forgive me if this is too graphic, but I don’t know how else to explain it. I saw her sitting at her desk, pant-less, her legs spread, and her feet pressed firmly against the desks edge. She had one hand between her legs and was gasping in breaths of passion.

This alone wasn’t cause for concern. Hell, I’d been in a similar position myself on more than one occasion. If she had been on the phone with some lucky caller, in a heavy cybersex session with an online buddy, or looking at her favorite porn site I would have smiled. If she had managed to convince that cute girl from the bank to come home with her and was now sharing this moment of intimacy with her, I’d have been happy for her, if not a bit jealous that I wasn’t there with them both. Even if the nice Mexican guy across the street had finally caught her eye and was getting ready to give it to her good, I’d have understood. Even if she was taking care of business with my worst enemy, I’d have found some way to get past that.

But, the truth was much, much worse. I was not prepared for what I saw on her computer monitor. I gasped out loud at the sight of it but, apparently she was too deeply involved with herself and the filth before her that she didn’t even notice. I silently crept out of the house trying not to vomit until I made it a few miles down the street.

Later that night, after she was asleep I checked her computer and found what she was looking at. I can’t bring myself to even describe this disgusting display but I feel that, if you don’t understand the nature of it, you will not understand why I’m so disturbed. So, unfortunately, all I can do is offer it to you to view. Please watch as much of it as you can stand and then offer me any advice you might have. I’m open to any suggestion at all.

This is VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY not safe for work, children, or, just about anyone except filthy, disgusting, disturbed perverts (of which, my wife apparently is one).

“Click Here to view”:http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-3382491587979249836 (and I’m sorry to make you watch this).

support the things you love

Last night Jess and I stopped by “Art Six”:http://www.myspace.com/artsixcoffee for a cup of coffee. This place has everything that I look for in a coffee house. First and foremost, it makes good coffee. It also has nice cozy places to sit, lots of tables, lots of corners to hide in with a book, and lots of open space to be social with whomever else happens to be there. There’s always a friendly face behind the counter, art on the walls, and, fairly often, live music. If you’ve never been, give me a call and I’ll personally take you there and buy you your first cup.

This time, pouring out from the back room, was the beautiful, soulful voice of “Arielle Silver”:http://www.ariellesilver.com/ (on “MySpace”:http://www.myspace.com/ariellesilver) accompanied by rich, fluid bass and percussion with subtlety and finesse, something sure to make the misses a very happy woman. I’d never heard of them before but I’m glad I found them there. The poetic lyrics, complicated melodies, and tight rhythm give them polished sound of “real musicians” yet leave them with enough of a raw edge to keep them interesting. Give them a listen, I’m sure you’ll enjoy it. They are playing tonight at the “Standards and Pours”:http://www.standardandpours.com/ coffee house and are currently “touring all over the US”:http://www.ariellesilver.com/calendar.html. Find out when they’ll be near you and check them out.

In this morning’s dose of the world wide web, I learned that David Hobby, photographer for the Baltimore Sun and creator and author of “Strobist”:http://strobist.com/, is feeling the pain of “putting in too much personal time for not nearly enough money”:http://strobist.blogspot.com/2006/07/strobists-next-phase.html, something I’m all too familiar with.

For the photographers in my readership, “Strobist”:http://strobist.com/ is a website that encourages the use of small, inexpensive, off-camera flashes and simple light modifiers in a manual fashion to allow lit photography to become a often used tool in every photographers repertoire. David offers “well written instruction”:http://strobist.blogspot.com/2006/03/lighting-101.html, provides a wide range of “well explained examples”:http://strobist.blogspot.com/2006/03/on-assignment.html, gives his opinion on a big selection of “related gear”:http://strobist.blogspot.com/2006/04/gear-articles-and-reviews.html and is holding a “lighting boot camp”:http://strobist.blogspot.com/2006/06/lighting-boot-camp-archive-page.html where he encourages his readers, assignment after assignment, to take the flashes off their cameras and make some incredible images. Check it out! It’ll change the way you look at flash photography.

Unfortunately for this budding new blogger, David is learning that most people these days expect handouts and a free ride and are rarely willing to part with their own money, time, or resources when they don’t have to. Despite thousands of new readers all scraping together equipment based on David’s simple suggestions and millions of hits to his website from all parts of the world, he’s making very little from his affiliate banners, product links, and advertising. Why? Because people are too lazy to be bothered to use a link from David’s site to buy the products he recommends.

I make it a point to use links from David’s site (or other sites like his that I support) even when purchasing products he didn’t recommend because it’s important to me to have such a valuable resource (and others like it) continue to exist. It’s important to me that a place like Art Six exists that, even when it’s a longer drive than other places for me, I still make the effort to get out there and I always leave a good tip. While I’m grateful that Arielle Silver was able to gain some exposure last night, it really made me sad to see so many people enjoying this music and yet so few willing to drop a few bucks in the tip jar or buy a CD. Jess and I bought a CD and a small tip, though it doesn’t even cover their hotel room for the evening, let alone gas, food, equipment and a decent wage for the three of them.

If you don’t support the things you love they will go away.