I’ve finally learned to quell a lot of the background thought that seems to run constantly through my mind. I’ve realized over time that the thoughts themselves aren’t unusual in the world. The fact that I pay attention to them at all is. (Some of you will know exactly what I’m talking about here.)
This is mostly a good thing because it allows me to make a little more sense out of the world and allows the world to make a little more sense out of me. It’s got a bad side too, though. There’s now one more piece of me that remains very hidden most of the time. I lost a very good friend not too long ago for expressing too much of myself because I thought I was in the clear. So, if and when this background noise should ever be allowed to the front with anyone other than myself, I’ll have to be very careful about how I do it and who I do it with.