Posts from ‘November, 2006’

I broke down. I collapsed. I gave up.
You thought I was so strong. You thought I was so capable. And maybe I am strong. Maybe I am capable. But it was still just too much. So I gave up. No tears. No regrets. No second thoughts. I just laid down and gave up. I realized [...]

In the past when I've polled my readers to find out what aspects of my site they are most interested in, "seeing new photographs" almost always ranks as #1. So I was quite surprised when I realized that it's been two weeks since I "announced the opening":http://revjim.net/2006/11/14/website-house-keeping/ of my photoblog, "Arranging Light":http://djamesphoto.com/arranginglight/, and I've only [...]

I was inspired to, once again, take the "Color Quiz":http://colorquiz.com/ once. And, once again, it's "surprisingly accurate":http://www.colorquiz.com/cgi-bin/results.cgi?do=print_blog&picked1=3,4,5,7,6,2,1,0,4&picked2=5,4,3,7,6,1,2,0,2&sex=Male&blog_name=Daniel. Just like last time, I find the it is most meaningful if I go over it and discuss each point in greater detail.
Daniel's Existing Situation
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along [...]

Ignoring Thanksgiving entirely was impossible. So, instead, I just dodged it as best as I could and accepted what I couldn't dodge.
Thursday morning, before heading to my mom's place to spend the day, we went out for a nice hike along the Trinity River. The sun was out and, given the colder than usual temperatures, [...]

Sometimes, noticing the stem end of a pickle stuffed into a ziplock bag on the floorboard of my truck is enough to make make the day a million times better. Today such a day.
I've said this before so, except that it's entirely different this time, it's nothing new. I will only give what I'm given. [...]

So we're not going to West Texas for Thanksgiving. Yes, I had my heart set on it. Yes, it was very much a part of my therapy. Yes, I imagine it feels a lot like taking Methadone away from a recovering heroin addict. It's my own fault, I've learned my lesson and it won't happen [...]

the pipes and tunnels of life and sewage
overlap under the skin of our hearts and cities.
quiet. unnoticed.
until something breaks, bubbling up to the surface.
friends and city planners will proclaim
no one saw it coming!
it happened all of a sudden!
loved ones and mayors will rejoice
as the flooding stops
the pipes are mended
and the skin is restored
leaving only a [...]

I've been tearing my life apart lately: breaking off each desire, addiction, relationship, lust, goal, need and passion like irregularly shapedLego blocks; analyzing each of them; looking for other places they might fit; putting some aside for a while to see how well I function withoutthem repainting others; cutting some into even tinier pieces. Then [...]

How deep do I really want to dig into my own mind? I mean, if you look me in the eyes and ask me that question, I'll avert my eyes and answer with, "as deep as I can". As a logical, thinking man filled with reason and wonder with an open mind and nothing to [...]

First of all, since I've been putting off the final touches for what seems like forever now, I'm just going to do it. "Arranging Light":http://djamesphoto.com/arranginglight/, my "new"photoblog is officially in use. There are a few small changes that will take place in the near future, but, for most purposes, it's ready to go. Until this [...]