Posts from ‘November, 2008’

I was important.
I was not alone.
I had you.
I left.
I felt lonely.
I felt insignificant.
I was without you.
Looking behind me, I see
Though I was not alone,
I was lonely still.
Though I was important,
my importance was trivial.
Looking ahead, I see
I am alone,
though unlonely.
I am unknown,
thought my importance is significant.
Lonely has no opposite.

Brian Webb – Bigger Than I Am
Roughly 10 years ago, I caught a disease. A disease of the mind. Something that wiggled it's ways into the folds of my thought and slowly and persistently injected increasingly invalid thoughts into my brain. Thoughts that cause me to believe that I should be abused. That I should [...]

I did this.
I�ain't did this.
Kinda dun it.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis.
10. Sang a solo

Celeste will be 11 months old tomorrow. Time is flying by and I feel like I'm missing so much of her life. It's not that I haven't been there for nearly every new and interesting moment, it's just that I lose track of when they happened. For instance, she can climb stairs now. But I [...]

As he was absorbed into the dark, distant night
he knew this would be the last time
he'd watch her walk away.
Yet still he held on as tightly as he could
to the one piece of her that was left.
OneWord // Held

I am surrounded by clatter and commotion.
The clang-crash of pots and pans
falling from the cupboard to the floor
as I look further back.
Despite the noise, I am seeking.
The click-scrape of plastic parts
forgotten far in the back,
each corner forcing a new worry.
Despite the noise, I write while driving
because it feels good to feel.
I will teach nine years [...]

1. What was a guilty-pleasure song of yours in high school? You loved it without irony? Even though you knew it was wrong?
In high school I loved Def Leppard. But, I didn't think it was wrong. I KNEW it was OH SO RIGHT.
2. What do you spend altogether too much time on?
Thinking. Worrying about the [...]

I need a love to help me find my way
I need a strength that I cannot betray
I need a word to say what I can't say
I need a lover
-Cherry / The Smashing Pumpkins
It really hard to sum up a weekend like this in a word or two. I'm inclined to say "it was a good [...]

So yesterday I claimed I was going to Lost Maples.
Ha ha hahaha. Just kidding.
Lost Maples an 8 hour drive for me, each way, and I'll have to do it alone which exactly what I don't need right now. Additionally, right now on weekends, Lost Maples has a 3 hour way to get in. So Lost [...]

TokBox is a website that provides video chat services, also known as webcam services. Yes, it's true, just about every instant messaging platform already does this: Skype, Windows Live Messenger, Yahoo Messenger –�even Google Talk does video chat now. On top of that, there are already so many sites providing video calling and conferencing like [...]