I usually think before I act. To a fault, almost. Selfishness and impulse and drive for instant gratification has been all but driven out. But there’s a little nugget in the center of me that works in exactly the opposite manner — a compacted and compressed piece of Id surrounded by Ego walls. Walls, however, sometimes have cracks — cracks that turn into leaks.
I could certainly stand to have a little more passion and selfishness influence my day to day decisions. But when it makes it’s way to the front to lead this body and mind around this planet for a bit, it can get difficult.
Balance is key, of course. But that changes I make take some time to take effect. If I’m not patient enough and make a second adjustment before the first has been fully realized, then I overshoot. And, at the same time, it’s nice to know I can let those uncapped, unchecked, unthrottled aspects of me out once in a while. So building a stronger, bigger, thicker wall is not the answer. And every door has a point of weakness.