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this past week

Sep 4th, 2008
by Jim Reverend.
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When did all you people start actively using LiveJournal/Blogs again? It’s going to take me forever to catch up since I haven’t checked in over a week. It’s nice to have some insight into all of your lives again, though, so I’m not complaining. Just need to remember to check more often. Here’s my take on recent events.

Last Monday sucked. Really bad. I’ve been stuck in a bout of self-pity brought on by feelings of being excluded and trapped there because of the proximity of those lives to mine. I’ve still got a way to go, but I’m fixing it. I’ve had a few decent people offer some awesome advice and that’s making a difference.

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and part of Friday were just aftershocks from Monday. Not good. On Friday I decided to stop caring about the people that were hurting me and start living for myself and enjoying the things that I had. This was the best decision I’ve made in months — maybe even years. Despite a few small relapses when I happen to look too closely, I’ve been doing well with this so far.

Friday night was fun. A few drinks. A few friends. A little flirting. We all stayed up way too late.

Saturday was quite awesome. Not only did the Rushes throw an awesome party, but it was filled with lots of my favorite people as well as many of the new people I’m growing to like so much. I got to see many of the people I care about partake in very happy moments with one another, and that just makes me feel good. Despite the fact that Mr “Excuse Me” was he usual rude self, his wife is now nothing but nice to me when he’s not around and that feels good. The baby even managed to sleep at the party (despite the increasingly tone deaf karaoke in the next room) which meant that Jess and I both got to stay for the whole thing. Hooray.

Sunday was fairly low key. Spent some time at my parents, then met up with Johnny for coffee. Came home with the intent on drinking some more and realized we were all simply too tired to go on.

Monday started out VERY early and sad. I really wasn’t ready for Mel to leave. I’ve known her for 5 years but didn’t really get to know her until this past week. Once I did, I simply didn’t want her to go. After seeing her to the airport I met up with my dad for sunrise photos. I did some shopping, came home and made a pasta salad, and headed to Skwids for BBQ, Rock Band and friends.

Tuesday and Wednesday have been typical work days. Nothing too exciting there.

Today (Thursday) and tomorrow I have a few big projects at work that have to be wrapped up. On top of that I have to pick up a load of firewood (still not sure how), and make sure everything is ready to go for camping this weekend which I’m very excited about. 15 or so good friends, two nights, lots of fun, and Jess’ birthday on top of it all.

it always breaks

Jul 28th, 2008
by Jim Reverend.
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I think I’m a target for broken things — broken anything. From techology, to things bought in various stores, to that too-emo-for-my-age feeling that even most of my relationships are broken in some way.

I go into a Starbucks with a simple purpose: get some Caffiene before going back to work so I don’t fall asleep on the job and, while I’m at it, update my website. 15 minutes later and I’m finally online. I had to wait for Vista to “Switch Users”. Then I had to wait for it to log me in. Then I had to wait for it to get all booted up. Then I had to kill a few processes because it wasn’t coming up. Then I had to wait longer. When it finally came up I had to wait an eternity for the AT&T login page on the Starbucks wireless network to appear. It never did. I eventually gave up and slapped in my Mobile Data card. 15 minutes! So, here I am, finally. I’m so frustrated I don’t even remember what I intended to write about.

Our house has one room that’s about 10 degrees hotter than the rest. I guess it’s built wrong. I have no idea. Of course, we never really started using that room until our new home warranty was up. Even better, I’ve now selected it as my office. So, instead of trying to figure out what wrong with the ducts, I just decided to buy a window A/C. Of course, my windows (seemingly the same windows as everyone else in the world) don’t quite cooperate with the type of window mounts provided. So, my office is still 10 degrees hotter. But now, I’m $150 poorer and there’s an air conditioner taking up the floor in the corner.

I bought a water proof camera bag in order to take photos underwater while at the lake. Of course, the only sizes available are too-small for $20 and way-too-big for $120. So, I opt for way-too-big since the description says the the bag has some srt of bellows to accomodate lenses as small at 3cm. That’s a lie. A big lie. So, I have a bunch of photos that have the corners cut out of them thanks to the bag getting in the way of the shot. Didn’t really matter anyway since none of the photos came out. I have no idea why.

I upgraded the LiveJournal Crossposting script that I use on this site and on my photo blog. Of course, something changed and now, my other plugin that formats my photo posts all pretty like doesn’t work leaving the Crossposted LJ entries looking more than worthless. I’m sure I can figure out what’s wrong, but I really just don’t want to.

I could go on and on, but I think you get the gist. Nothing works for me. If there’s a way something can go wrong or a point that should never fail can fail, it’s happened to me in some way and, most likely, at the time when I was relying on it most.

And, of course, I’m sure this griping all seems trivial. But it’s just one more straw on an already overloaded mind burdened by what seems to be a heavier and heavier heart. I need a break.