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Texas Coast, Day II and Day III

Day II

Harbor Bridge

Harbor Bridge

I woke up early, showered, then went out to meet a friend I haven’t seen on a few years for a cup of coffee. Then I had a little time at the hotel followed by a late breakfast at Kerbie Lane which was quite good.

Then we left Austin headed for Rockport. We made a few stops on the way, then checked into the hotel and bummed around for a bit before going to the boiling pot for dinner. After dinner we drove to the harbor bridge for some photographs and were lucky to see the Barnum and Bailey train full of animals on the tracks.

It’s strange, and sort of sad, to see the animals outside of their element. When they are in the circus and you’re watching the act, it’s a performance. It’s not reality and it’s not meant to be seen that way. But seeing train car after train car filled with elephants, their trunks moving up and down in front of the steel caged windows made me consider their life outside of performance. I can’t say they aren’t happy. It’s obvious their life is different than it would be roaming free. But that doesn’t mean their unhappy. It’s just strange to think in those terms.

After photos, we called it a night.

Day III

my pounding chest

my pounding chest

The day began just a little too late to catch the sunrise. But Justin and I went out for some early morning photos anyway. I forgot how bad the humid air here can be on a cold camera lens and I ended up being unable to get any photographs that morning as I waited for all of the lens elements to defog. Lesson learned: leave the camera in the car overnight.

Justin and I had a damn good breakfast on the harbor and picked up something for Bonnie on the way back. Then we bummed around the hotel some more and eventually ended up heading for Mustang Island. We stopped and had some good sushi in Corpus Christi and also picked up a hat so the sun wouldn’t get to us. I had brought one but couldn’t find it and thought I had forgotten it and then later found it. Ha.

I had a fantastic time on Mustang Island. So beautiful. For me, being surrounded in nature or surrounded in love are the two ways one can be physically the closest to God. Really, I’d argue that those are one and the same.

It’s so amazing to stand on the soft, sandy ocean bottom as wave after wave crashes into your chest. Fall back and kick your feet until your back hits the ground and just wait for another wave to pass. Jump through waves as they pass by you. Let waves carry you forward toward shore, then feel the return sweep you off your feet. These waves, these tides, are the pulse of the earth. Wading in them — feeling them push against you again and again — your pulses almost synchronize. There’s nothing quite like it to show you just how small yet important you are.

Despite travelling with friends, I was alone in that moment. I found myself wishing for close companionship. Someone who would feel how heavy the world is with me — side by side — and then playfully remind me of how light it is as well. Maybe a smile, a competitive splash, a kick in the legs, a long kiss, or a playful flash. Something to say “in this world, we are small. Yet in it all, this world, too, is small. And in that, we are all important. ”

Yeah. You can say all of that without speaking.

We stopped at a Mediterranean place for dinner which was quite good. Then we headed to take night photos of Fulton Mansion and then back to the hotel for much needed rest. I should have showered before bed. But, instead, I left the sweet, sticky, salt on my skin over night, so I would be reminded again in the morning.

change is coming

On November 4th, 2008 a Black man was elected president of the United States of America. While this is an incredible sign of the collapsing walls of racism in America, and a very visible change in these early days, if you think this is the most important thing that happened on that great day, you’ve missed the point.

I truly hope that some day we will see a woman in the oval office, as well as a muslim, a gay person, a disabled person, a blind person, and a person belonging to every other often discriminated against.

But even if Barack Obama had been a white man and even if John McCain had been a blind, black, lesbian woman, of the Muslim faith: my vote would have gone to Barack Obama. Because while there are many other ways to show that the walls of discrimination are crumbling in this country, I do believe that Barack Obama represents the best hope for this nation right now.

Sometime during the Clinton Administration this great country became polarized. Nearly every voting American carries with them an “us or them”, “red or blue” mentality. “You’re either with us or against us”. During the eight long years that George W. Bush was in office, he did nothing to discourage such thought. But we are one nation!

In Obama’s powerful victory speech he said, “to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too.” Even if you’re in a “red state”, even if you’re a “republican”, even if you didn’t vote for him — you’re still an American, he’s still your president, and we’re all in this together. Once again our nation will be united.

What’s so incredible about being a citizen of one of the greatest nations on this planet if those citizens do not embrace one another and take care of eachother? Without brotherhood, loyalty, and the support of one another, could not any American be just as happy in England, or Germany, or France, or Canada?

Capitalism means that each and every person has the opportunity to seek his goals and acheive his dreams. But America is about more than just capitalism.

America is the land of the free! Freedom of faith. Freedom of speech. Freedom to love who we choose. Freedom to marry who we choose. Freedom to speak any language. Freedom to observe any culture. Freedom to be filthy rich. Freedom to give it all away. Freedom to be whoever we are. And with these great freedoms there is a price: tolerance.

America is the home of the brave! In January of 2009 one brave man will take the reigns of a nation in financial, economic, and social turmoil and promise to give everything he’s got to turn it around. And he’ll ask every brave American to clench their teeth, sacrifice a little of themselves, and dig in right here on American soil and abroad to help in that effort. It will not be easy, but we will be brave.

America is the land of Opportunity. Written on our statue of liberty, the symbolic gateway to this country, are these words: “Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free, the wretched refuse of your teeming shore. Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me, I lift my lamp beside the golden door!” Rich or poor, black or white, hungry or fed, young or old, gay or straight, it is the duty of every American to rise up and support his country and his countrymen. This can mean carrying a weapon and defending our borders. It can mean becoming part of the adminstration. It can mean paying a few extra dollars in income tax. It can mean buying American goods created on American soil, even if they cost a little more.

I love this country. And now, after what seems to have been such a long, dark time, we are poised for change. Barack Obama is the right person to lead us where we need to be, but he cannot do it alone. With our help, he can.

Obama closed his victory speech saying, “This is our time, to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth, that, out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope. And where we are met with cynicism and doubts and those who tell us that we can’t, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people: Yes, we can.”

YES WE CAN.

daniel in the box

rabbit hiding

I spend so many hours of each day filled with worry. For a change it’s nice to just live and not worry. It’s not really in my nature to not worry, though, so it makes me at odds with myself. Especially when I look back and worry about the impact those actions might have on my future.

Ultimately, I think a blend of the two would be best for me.

Forcing myself out of my box and spending time with friends who will help keep me out is a constant challenge to loosen up. A reminder that, while it’s okay to pour over numbers and finances and vacation plans and future goals, sometimes the best way to spend some time is making out in the park late at night like high schoolers.